I don’t know about you, but I’ve always struggled with my body image. My weight has always fluctuated and I’ve always had to work hard to get the body I want. Unfortunately, I wasn’t born into a family of long legs, thin thighs, natural muscle tone, high metabolism and hereditary thinness. Instead, I’m a product of the Eitel gene (my mom’s side), which comes along with thick thighs, short legs, curves, weight issues and hypothyroidism. Great. Oh yes, we’re the ones that try every fad diet that comes around, purchase late-night infomercial exercise videos that get completed maybe twice, buys a gym membership that never gets used and shares new workout tips we learn, but can never seem to find the time to do them. We all WANT to have a great body. We WANT to be healthy. And we WANT to be workout fiends. But being born and raised in south Georgia around a mom and grandma who are the best cooks around, having to drive everywhere instead of being able to walk or ride a bike, and eating one meal with the family while talking about the next – you can see how that might be a challenge.
BUT. Now is the time I change that. You only get one life, one body and one chance to be young. Why shouldn’t I be the best I can be while I can? I should. I can. And I will.
I had my “ah-ha” moment yesterday while going through a box of old pictures and came across several photos of my from my high school days. Crazy to think that was only seven years ago. These pictures (along with a pair of my favorite jeans I’ve held onto since then) are my motivation.
I had that body? Wow … to think I used to think I was fat. And now I’d give anything to have it back. Granted, I went to gymnastics 2-3 days a week, had 3 hours of gym and cheerleading practice 6 days a week year-round, took aerobics and gym class for school credit, came home from practice to do workout videos or go for a run, had homemade meals every night of the week, never ate school lunch (because, well, who really ate school cafeteria lunch?), and didn’t drink alcohol. But who’s keeping track?!
Now, I work a full-time job at a desk 8 hours a day, come home and just want to relax on the couch, go out to dinner way too often and look forward to a glass of wine every night. I try to cook healthy as much as possible, but it’s not nearly enough. I have a PACKED walk-in closet with nothing to wear, and when I go shopping, I search and search for the “perfect” outfit that makes me look great. Why? Why don’t I just fix myself so that I can look great in all the clothes I already own? The truth is, everything looks great on a great body.
I remember in 12th grade, my mom and I went out for dinner and I said how I’d love to have a milkshake, but didn’t need the calories. She told me (and I remember as clear as day,) “You could have 12 milkshakes and be perfectly fine because you’re so active.” I’m sure it was true then. For some reason I kept that mentality through college, but the “active” part was lacking. Sure enough, all those milkshakes (which soon tuned into Michelob Ultras and vodka cranberries) caught up with me, and here I am.
So, today is the day. Today, everything changes. Jimmy and I have been trying to do the Body by Vi 90 Day Challenge for a month. It’s not that hard, we just haven’t been disciplined enough. I’ve lost a few pounds, but by now I could be 10-15 pounds down! All the challenge entails is replacing two meals a day with yummy shakes (of any flavor), snacking on healthy snacks throughout the day and eating a sensible dinner. They give you a TON, of energy, make you feel great and actually really do fill you up. We’re doing it for REAL now. No excuses.
The moment I got home from work today, I did a 20-minute intense yoga workout video, a 15-minute kickboxing video, 50 sit-ups and this leg exercise I found on Pinterest.
It might not be a lot, but you have to start somewhere.
I am determined to take control of my body, health and life again. When you do this, not only does it make you look and feel better, but it helps you think more clearly, concentrate better, be more productive and just makes you want to live an all-around better lifestyle. Work, lack of time, responsibilities, serious relationship … I could make excuses for myself all day, but it’s not going to do a thing for me. I have to get my ass up and do it on my own!
I haven’t worn shorts in three years and I haven’t purchased a new bathing suit in two years, all because I hate the way I look in them and didn’t want to spend money on something I don’t look good in. Well, guess what? I just bought a new bikini and I WILL wear shorts with a smile on my face THIS summer. Watch me!
This isn’t stuff I talk to many people about, and definitely not something I say out loud often at all, but I have to hold myself accountable and I know putting this out for anyone to see will help me do just that. I will be tracking my progress, posting updates, sharing tips and inspiring myself through this blog as often as possible. And hopefully, in a year from now, I will be looking back at this post with rock-hard abs, thighs that don’t touch and a size small tank top on!
I am ready to go from this..
Back to this… (only 7 years older….)
Now my sweet tooth is kicking in, so I’m going to head to the kitchen to make a bikini-friendly dessert: sliced grilled apples topped with cinnamon and nutmeg :).